The town/scene I find myself within is incestuous and poisonous. Nobody really has a personal or private life, everybody knows everyone elses’ business and I hate it. Still, I want to push on with my life here, because I refuse to be beaten by such things. This currently untitled song is about that. The last few lines though, slightly change tack a little; I know that simply writing songs is not going to fix all of my problems, and that there are other things I have to do to live as the person I want to be.
lyrics
Sleep’s for the weak and I’m an insomniac, but I’m paranoid about panic attacks. Guess I’m shit out of luck, stuck in this rut, but it’s too late for turning back. It’s too late for turning back.
It’s not that I don’t know who I am anymore, what gets me is the fact I don’t care. But when nothing I do is good enough for you, the point of this becomes less clear. I’m sick of all the rumours and games, the in crowd never seemed so lame. I can’t stand the stress, and fuck the peer pressure but I’m not going home again.
And I can write all I want on this blank page, when I put the pen down, nothing will change. Am I stuck with who I am, Am I stuck this way? I can write all I want on this blank page, when I put the pen down, nothing’s changed. I won’t be stuck with who I am. I won’t be stuck this way.
credits
from Demo,
released August 7, 2011
Joel Growney VOCALS, Damien 'DAMO' Mapson GUITAR, Joe Anderson BASS, Jochen Such DRUMS. Mixed and recorded by Rich Tamblyn @ Old Blacksmith Studios.
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